Somewhere between the alter and the door.....

I heard a song with this title once, and it's had that "Stuck with me forever" kidna feel to it. The words were not only poetic but very telling of me at what appears to be every season of life.

Though my time at a physical alter has been scarce if any the past few years, and alter doesn't necessarily have to be a physical thing in my opinion. You can have alters in your house or even your mind. I don't mean this in a disrepectful way in the least nor do I mean to demean the presence of a physical alter in itself.

What I am meaning to say by this is I have had some of the most precious times of self reflection while in the car, in the shower, or elsewhere. Those in essence can be your "little alters".

I know today's post was supposed to be about Fascinating Womanhood. That is being put off for a few days.

This Sunday morning reflection of mine is why I'm here. To figure out why I am here. To figure out what in my life can be changed. To figure out what is good and what needs to go away. To figure out me.

So, somewhere between my little alters and the door, I get lost. I have such good intentions, and then they go away. They are so clear and so evident in my mind, and then once I get up from my "alter", they leave quickly.

I second guess myself.

I forget.

I let something or someone change my opinion or my perception.

I let things in life come between me and what I know to be the "right way".

My talk on Fascinating Womanhood had to be changed. Because  what I was planning on writing at first was truthful yes, but left somethings out. I can't be a good blogger or even a good "self reflectionist" if I leave out some facts.

So, from hence-forth, this blog will be totally true. Warts and scars and all.

After all, you may never find your pot of gold if you don't take some detours through a dark and scary forest right?

Fascinating Womanhood

Today is kind of one of those days that will go down in infamy as "busy".
My son is so cute.
For whatever reason here lately, ask him to help you do anything.
His response,
"Mommy, I busy."

Alas,
Today,
Landon, sweet boy,
Mommy is busy.

On top of the home inspection that we await this morning,
I also need to do a lot of studying.
And a little thrift store hunting.
:)
Boy will be accompanying me of course.
I'm never too busy for Boy.

But I did feel compelled to stop and give you all a sneak peek at tomorrow.
When hopefully,
I'm not too busy to write an amazing review on Fascinating Womanhood.

It's changing my relationship.
I guarantee
if you give it a chance,
it will change yours too.
Stay tuned!
Oh, and Happy Thursday!

The purpose of this blog....

The purpose of this blog is not to make you feel bad about yourself.
It'll probably make you feel good about yourself anyways. :)

It's not to teach you any sort of grammar or spelling, punctuation or language skills.
I blog in a very scattered non-sensical way.
Because it makes sense to me and my brain, I post it.

It's not to judge or point fingers. Not to pass blame or to shirk my own blame on things I've done wrong.

It's a place for me to share.
From the heart.

A place I can tell my story.
A place where I can find rest and comfort.
A place where I can find some sense. Where I can use my own written word to hopefully come to some conclusion as to where I should land.

What is there for you?

Well, a front row seat to my story of course!

And.... I hope you find joy, mirth, and some answers yourself. I've found that I can glean so much from another's experiences as well as my own. Sometimes our failures and successes can influence another. Sometimes they can't.

I will never pass judgement on anyone. If you feel that I am, please re-evaluate what I am trying to say. My words will sometimes make you cry, and sometimes make you laugh hysterically. I am just trying to find my way down a path that has been anything but straight. It's down a path that's been jagged and dirty.

You will find my old stories and my new. I'll also review things as I go and offer as much advice and influence as one girl can.

Please, join me for the ride of my life. :)

I'll leave you with the words of one of my favorites........ This is exactly why this blog was created.